Just a thought

I trully believe that if a man really loves you, he'll find ways to make you feel loved and special no matter where he is. 

Long distance relationship sucks sometimes. It's just sad that not all your expectations will be met (not that you are expecting it... Just hoping I guess) Sometimes you wonder if he still loves you or not and I guess you can't blame yourself if you feel jealous or bad because he's supposed to  tell you he loves you everyday and he's supposed to make you feel loved everyday. 

It's sad, he just can't do it I guess... 

Breathe in, breather out

So no matter what is going on in my life right now, I still know that everything is going to be alright. I don't want to stress myself over work, where my life is heading, relationship, and things like that. One day, everything is going to make perfect sense. 

Just like what my coworker reminded me:

Someday everything will make perfect sense... So for now laugh through the confusion... Smile through the tears...and keep reminding.. Everything happens for a reason...

I don't want to think that I'm feeling bored but I want to be anywhere but here. I'm still dreaming of a getaway... in a beach, barefoot with the cool wind and the sound of the waves crashing to the shore.

While sitting here in the office, counting the hours and the days and months, I'm wondering, yes still wondering where I will be this time next year. 

I know I'm still lucky and blessed to have a job but I still want to find my passion. I'm thinking of teaching preschoolers. It sure is a lot more fun than dealing with adults exchanging currencies or sending money. 

I know at some point in my life, I dreamt of being here but I feel like I've been here for too long. I know I've never really stayed long enough in my job. I just think that I should try other jobs and keep looking for the one that I enjoy doing rather than dragging myself to work everyday and dreading coming to work. 

I think I'm almost in the verge of throwing up whenever I think about work. I'm not just very happy about being where I am now. Okay so, I just have to remind myself that I'm not going to do this forever. I will find my passion (Awww but I have to wait till next year because of some plans that I don't want to screw up) and follow what I want to do. I should do something that makes me happy and look forward to a new day everyday. 

I still believe everything's going to be okay. I'll keep my faith and I know God has a better plan for me. :-)

Tired...

Counting the months and the days... I'm in the verge of getting tired of being here... I wanna be somewhere else... I wanna go home... I miss my old job in the Phil. I miss teaching online***deep sigh***  oh God! Please give me more patience and understanding...

Just a thought

Breathe in, breathe out... Lucky those date palms swaying to the rhythm of the wind. They seem to be enjoying every bit of their day. 

I watch them and I'm drifted to a summer in the beach in flip flops and sipping mojito, enjoying the cool breeze and watching the waves go rushing to the shore.

I think I'm missing life. I know I'm not a tree and I can change my situation now but I guess for now I'm up against the wall. I won't be doing this forever and won't be here forever so I guess I just have to take things easy. This soon shall pass...

I still wish I'm out there in the beach listening to the waves instead of hearing the cars passing by... 

Soon... 🌴☀️🍉🏊🌻

You're amazing

This time last year, you opened my heart and made me believe that soul mates do exist, that someone is destined for me, and you made all those dreams that I have come true, you're an answer to my prayers. I'm no longer waiting in line nor searching for that one man that would prove to me that there's a soul mate and a destiny. 

I just want to let you know that I am thankful and I'm so blessed being loved by you. You are amazing! I can't ask for anything else in this world. Maybe you don't have any idea how happy I am for finding a place in your heart. Do you know how happy I am when I hear your voice? How I get excited when I hear my phone rings and see your name in there? How I get so conscious when we're talking and when you're looking at me? You still give me butterflies. 

When I look at you and I see the smiles in your eyes, my heart jumps in joy. I love the way you laugh, the way you talk, the way you call me, the way you make me feel loved, the way you care, the way you comfort me, the way you tease me, the way you treat me, I love every single way that you do for me. I love the way you love me. I love you in every single way.

Thank you babe for showing me what true love is. Thank you for believing in us.Thank you for being my best friend,my man,  my lover, my soul mate, my one true love. I just want you to know that the most wonderful thing I decided to do was to share my life and heart with you.  I love you always .xoxo

Life offshore

You sleep then wake up the following day, be a functioning adult, work to earn and at the end of the day, be glad that it's over then do the same stuff again. 

I used to dream of working offshore, be in a different environment and be challenged in the differences in culture... Now I feel like my excitement in living here slowly fades... I feel like I'm a zombie, just working to live... Except that of course zombies eat to live (oh no, they're dead they don't eat to live, they eat because that's what they have to do).  Uh, am I becoming a zombie? Just working because I have to? The fact is I don't really have to be here if I don't want to... I don't have my kids to feed or some serious obligations to fulfill... Oh, I guess I'm just trying to be a functioning adult... Isn't that fun? No, not at all. The thing is I still don't know what I really want... But I wanna go to Vietnam and try it there. I guess my heart still belongs to teaching. 

Someday soon, I know I'll be leaving this place and maybe I'll miss this place...I can't wait to miss this place.