Good morning!

It feels so good to wake up not being bothered by the alarm or the time running out. Woke up a bit late after staying up late... That's balance I guess ;-)

Lazy and cozy... 

Going home

After two long years... Actually it didn't really seem so long but I'm glad I'm coming home. Waiting for my departure... 

And I love you so

So you maybe far far away but that doesn't and won't stop me from loving you. You know that I'll just be right here waiting for you whatever it takes. You're one of the bestest blessings 

in my life and I just can't thank God enough for blessing me with a love like you. 

A visit from the past

I wish I'm a child again, worrying nothing, day dreaming, playing till mealtime, just doing all those stuff that kids do. 

I have a great childhood and now I just can't help but reminisce those memories. Those times during school vacation where my siblings and I would just go to the farm at the back of our house and build a shack and pretend that it's our house then we would mould some clay and make some pots out of if and would cook some stuff out of leaves, and seeds and other stuff. 

I think it's a wonderful escape walking down memory lane. 

Things have sure changed a lot. I'm still thankful that I have those great memories to look back. I miss being a child again.

You're like the cup of coffee that I made today - blunt! I dont understand you at times. Somehow, I'm feeling like you're being so blunt. Maybe you dont care about how I feel. I thought you understand me. You're being insensitive at times. When can you understand me? If you're having a rough day, you should have at least tell me, so I would understand why I'm not hearing from you.
Is it just because you know that I trully love you that you're just taking advantage of my feelings by not keeping your words?
How can I understand you if you're not making me understand you?
There are times that I feel like we're going nowhere.
Should I hold on?

At the end of the day

I'm thankful because at the end of the day I have no worries for tomorrow. Though there were some bad moments at work but at the end of the day, I'm thankful for no bad incidents happened. 

Hope this month will be a good one. Thank God! 

Thankful

I'm just thankful for today. I believe miracles happen and that God is always watching over me. And so I thank God for so many things.

Feeling blessed 🙏

Thoughts...

A few years ago, how I longed to come here. How I longed to see this place and experience life here. Now that I'm here and it's almost a couple of years of being here, I'm a bit tired of my routine.

I don't hate my life here, but I don't really like it either. Sometimes I think people who are doing what they want and being where they want to be are very lucky. 

They said you can change where you are, you're not a tree - how I wish it's that easy. Reality is, things are not always as easy as they seem to be. ***deep sigh***

Alright, everything's gonna be alright. I know. 

Out of the blue

So I was feeling all bored and I was wondering where I would be 365 days from now when I decided to check my inbox and unexpectedly I got an email from my "used to be" online student. It's been years since I've heard from her and I never thought that I would hear from her again. I feel so happy being remembered. Now, I suddenly miss my old job. I miss being an online-teacher. I still prefer that job over the job that I have right now. Teaching is still more fulfilling compared to my job right now. 😟

It makes me smile...

It makes me smile when you remember all the little things that I never thought you would remember.

It makes me smile the way you call me yours and the way you get greedy in wanting me all to yourself.

It makes me smile when you sing me a song and the way you laugh after singing. 

It makes me smile when you tease me.

It makes me smile the way you call my name. 

It makes me smile knowing I have you.

It makes me smile knowing that you love me. 😊

Those days...

I'm tired... I mean not really physically tired, though I'm almost heading to that direction. I'm kind of mentally and emotionally tired (okay, I don't always feel this way... Just some days and this is one of those days). I don't know how to feel. I'm not happy nor sad. I'm not fed up with my job (not yet... Hope I will not come to that point though) but I'm not happy about it either. 

I feel like I'm working just for the sake of working. I'm living absent-mindedly. I wish I'm somewhere else... in the beach or perhaps in the Himalayan mountains (just for a few days probably) or maybe exploring the rainforest of Amazon or in the sacred valley of Peru or in Sa Pa in Vietnam where Susana would brag about or maybe exploring the beautiful city of Singapore or just enjoying the relaxing view of Bali... Or maybe... maybe just sleeping, oblivious to the hurly burly of the world around me.

Random things I miss back home

I miss home and all those feelings associated to it. I miss that feeling after the rain where you hear the birds joyfully chirping rejoicing for the sunshine. I miss eating foods that my mother or sister would cook. I miss waking up so late without being bothered of being late for work. I miss the afternoon chat with my family/ neighbors. I miss the long and lazy walk down our oftentimes quiet street. I miss the sea. I miss the rice field at the back of our house. 

I miss the boring and laid back life back home. 

My lullaby

You know I feel so loved by you... All those things that you've done for me... making me smile, laugh, and singing me a song to sleep... I really feel so blessed being loved by you. 

The countless ways that you're making me feel that you love me makes my heart filled with so much happiness and loved. 

I love you and I'll always will! 😍😍

a love letter

Little did you know that the moment we started getting to know each other, I've slowly fallen in love with you. I may not remember  the exact time that my heartbeat started to race a little more than the normal beat but I know I've been keeping you in my heart for quite awhile now. It's been months now since I've confessed my true feelings to you and we were both elated knowing that we share the same feelings.
I know we have some rough times sometimes - lack of communication, misunderstanding, "wrong tone of voice", misunderstood messages, and other stuff but I want to let you know that in spite of those circumstances, I've never ceased loving you, not even a little bit less.
Looking back, I know we had wonderful memories in the past, memories that only you and I knew but those are the memories that keep me holding on and believing that one day we're going to share more sublime memories that our friends and families would know about. Though I don't know when that time would be, I want to let you know that I'm going to wait for you and I'm just gonna be around as long as you want me to.
You're the kind of man that I want to spend my life with. You're the kind of best friend that I want to hang around with, the kind of lover that I want to share my love with, the kind of crazy that I'm absurdly fond of, and you're the story in my love story.
So I pray that no matter how rough things are going to be between us we're going to make it through, just like what you told me, we're going to face a lot of difficult things in the future but if we love each other, we'll gonna make it through. So hang on there, you got me here. I love you.
xoxo

Coffe and in a pj @11am

Now I'm struggling on what to write or to do this morning... it's been a lazy Tuesday morning but I don't feel guilty about not knowing what to do, after all it's my day off. After helping my nephew get ready for his summer camp, I went back to bed and cuddled with my pillows while watching NCIS, Hawaii- O Five and whatever's on MBC Action then dozed off to sleep again. I don't feel like doing anything productive today, not that Im being productive on my day off, not at all I guess. I'm just lazy and I don't want to think about anything. After feeling kinda tired of lying down, I decided to make myself a cup of coffee. I haven't had coffee for quite a while ( I'm not a big coffee fan anyway, and we don't have sugar in stock...hahah) so after scavenging for a packet of sugar, to my delight I found 3 packets of sugar... you know those free packets that you get from Cinnabon/ Krispy Creme then you decided to keep it. Anyway, it wasn't a delighful coffee. I just thought I need a drink of it to shake away the cobwebs in my idle system while chatting with my friend on how lazy my morning is.

And staring at my phone waiting for him to call, but it was like a fat chance that he's gonna call... anyway he told me he might not be able to pick up his phone if I'll call... so while battling between sending him a voice message or not... I grabbed my phone and left him an audio message. Half expecting for a reply and then thought no, he's not gonna text or call.

I know he has some important matters to handle but sometimes I wish that he could at least have a minute or two to say hi or keep in touch. I mean, I'm not gonna take an hour of his time. Yeah, sometimes I'm disappointed thinking about him not keeping in touch.

So guess what, I still have half of my day to figure out something productive to do to the rest of Tuesday hours... or never mind... I'm not gonna figure it out anyway... it's my off and there's no need to think, yeah...

Be positive

Every little thing is gonna be alright.

Nostalgic

I miss the mundane life that I have back in Manila when I was still doing some online teaching. I miss walking in Guadalupe at night watching all those stalls selling clothes and fruits and stuff like that. 

I miss chatting with my friends as we rode in the jeep. 

I actually miss my life back in the Philippines. 

I know someday I'm gonna look back and maybe miss my life here in Bahrain... Maybe... 

Feeling down...

Oh God, help me make through this day without so much to worry about... Hope I'm gonna solve all my problems...

My life so far...

It's been so long since I wrote something here... Gotta keep my blog updated... Okay so, these past few months had been good and not so good but still I'm grateful that I'm surviving my everyday. 

So my job is okay, though right now I can't really see myself staying in this job for a very long time, not even more than so years... two years is just like the maximum. Been working here for two months already and honestly, I'm not really happy about my job, although well sometimes I find it okay but still...still I don't really like it but I know I have to deal with it. Now I can say I miss teaching english online. I think that's a lot better than being on this kind of job.

My life here in Bahrain is a whole lot different. I think the only thing that I like being here is when I go shopping, shopping here is fun 😊

When it comes to places here to go to, well, there's not really a lot to go go.... 

I miss the Philippines. I miss the simple and even mundane life there. I'm just like here for work and not really much of life.

I miss going to the beach... I miss the summer back home... I miss home.

I wonder what my life gonna be in two years... 

Sometimes I just wanna get out of here buy I'm glad that there are people who keep me going, who inspire me.

I believe that things happen for a reason and one day things gonna make sense...

Help me God to get through this...

Friday

Just the usual Friday. We went to church then went to City Centre. Had our lunch in a Filipino restaurant and we're quite happy about their food.

Our first time to eat in this Filipino restaurant and we're surprised on the food that they served. The food was just delicious and we're quiet satisfied.

tea-tasting



I was surprised that I actually like their tea, I mean I'm not a big tea fan but they've got really good tea

TypicAL Friday



P.F. Chang's Mojito

Having a late lunch @ P.F. Chang's Bahrain City Centre

Lost Paradise

So finally I'm able to go to The Lost Paradise. I've been wanting to go there and thanks to my sister-in-law for making it come true... Hahahha...
But before we headed to the Lost Paradise, we had our lunch picnic in Asry beach.

It surely was one of my best days here in Bahrain.

The crystal water in Asry beach

With MJ and Sean under the scorching April sun.

Just happy to be on the swing

Jasmine, MJ, Sean, and Jun

The Lost Paradise

Under the scorching summer heat

I think it's wise that they put some blue tiles on the "river" floor to make the water really blue.

Life's almost a beach

The slide at the background was really heart-pumping. I'm so glad I had the courage to take that ride.

Breaking my heart

How sad... My heart's crying. I wish you didn't make me fall for you. I wish you didn't tell me all your feelings coz now I feel alone and broken. It's just so sad. I still can't get you off of my mind...

Again...

Am I gonna be heartbroken again? Im heartbroken again...

Reminder

I guess I have to constantly remind myself not to fall too deeply and get back to reality...

❤

And I love you so!

Anxious

Anxious about my interview this afternoon... It really makes me nervous thinking about it. If only I can't just think about it but I just can't help it... Hope it's over now. Can I just like fast forward the hours today?

pietrisycamollaviadelrechiotemexity

And true enough I don't have the faintest idea on what's going on between you and me. I'm not even sure if what between us is real. Sometimes I'm not even sure if what you feel for me is real. And sometimes I'm having doubts...
And about my life... I'm anxious what's gonna happen if I'm going to get that job. I feel the pressure already... Whoaaa...
Help me God!

Ugh

I think I'm difficult... I'm indecisive... I'm confused... Ugh!

Don't you remember?

It was just like yesterday when we were so in love and now I don't even know if I've ever crossed your mind. You're still on my mind but I'm slowly realizing that maybe what we've said to each other are now distant memories. I was happy to confess my feelings and I was happy to know that I'm in your heart (or was in your heart). I don't have hard feelings. I know I just have to realize that at some point, things have to end. People change. Feelings change. I think I just have to stop this illusion that maybe it's gonna be you and me in the future.
I felt this feelings before. I know I'm gonna feel sorry that things didn't end up as expected, that words are now just words, and that things are not gonna get real between us but I know one day I'll look back and these memories won't bring sadness anymore.
I'll understand if I'm not gonna hear anything from you again. I guess it's better that way. At least we've tried...

And yes I do

You know I really love you. I can see myself spending my lifetime with you. I hope you'll not gonna give up on me. I hope it's gonna be you and me.

Again

So how many times do I have to feel this way? It's just that whenever I have this feeling, things changes. I'm tired feeling this way. I'm like starting to fall for you now but this feeling is just breaking my heart. How sad. I don't wanna think about you anymore. You sure did make me laugh and smile and happy but now you're gone again. I think it's better if I will not hear from you again... Ever!
Spare my heart if you'll not catch me.

Oh no!

Oh my! I think I miss you... Sheeesh! I don't actually like feeling this way. You have sleepless nights and it's just stupid. Dang, you got me. ~oh!

Phewwww

What is this I'm feeling I just can't explain... I like talking to you but if we gonna talk often I might get used to it... And I don't think it's really good...

2013

Celebrated my second new year here in the island. I'm thankful for everything in my life. I hope and pray that this year is going to be a good one for me and for the whole family.