Thankful

I'm just thankful for today. I believe miracles happen and that God is always watching over me. And so I thank God for so many things.

Feeling blessed 🙏

Thoughts...

A few years ago, how I longed to come here. How I longed to see this place and experience life here. Now that I'm here and it's almost a couple of years of being here, I'm a bit tired of my routine.

I don't hate my life here, but I don't really like it either. Sometimes I think people who are doing what they want and being where they want to be are very lucky. 

They said you can change where you are, you're not a tree - how I wish it's that easy. Reality is, things are not always as easy as they seem to be. ***deep sigh***

Alright, everything's gonna be alright. I know. 

Out of the blue

So I was feeling all bored and I was wondering where I would be 365 days from now when I decided to check my inbox and unexpectedly I got an email from my "used to be" online student. It's been years since I've heard from her and I never thought that I would hear from her again. I feel so happy being remembered. Now, I suddenly miss my old job. I miss being an online-teacher. I still prefer that job over the job that I have right now. Teaching is still more fulfilling compared to my job right now. 😟

It makes me smile...

It makes me smile when you remember all the little things that I never thought you would remember.

It makes me smile the way you call me yours and the way you get greedy in wanting me all to yourself.

It makes me smile when you sing me a song and the way you laugh after singing. 

It makes me smile when you tease me.

It makes me smile the way you call my name. 

It makes me smile knowing I have you.

It makes me smile knowing that you love me. 😊

Those days...

I'm tired... I mean not really physically tired, though I'm almost heading to that direction. I'm kind of mentally and emotionally tired (okay, I don't always feel this way... Just some days and this is one of those days). I don't know how to feel. I'm not happy nor sad. I'm not fed up with my job (not yet... Hope I will not come to that point though) but I'm not happy about it either. 

I feel like I'm working just for the sake of working. I'm living absent-mindedly. I wish I'm somewhere else... in the beach or perhaps in the Himalayan mountains (just for a few days probably) or maybe exploring the rainforest of Amazon or in the sacred valley of Peru or in Sa Pa in Vietnam where Susana would brag about or maybe exploring the beautiful city of Singapore or just enjoying the relaxing view of Bali... Or maybe... maybe just sleeping, oblivious to the hurly burly of the world around me.

Random things I miss back home

I miss home and all those feelings associated to it. I miss that feeling after the rain where you hear the birds joyfully chirping rejoicing for the sunshine. I miss eating foods that my mother or sister would cook. I miss waking up so late without being bothered of being late for work. I miss the afternoon chat with my family/ neighbors. I miss the long and lazy walk down our oftentimes quiet street. I miss the sea. I miss the rice field at the back of our house. 

I miss the boring and laid back life back home. 

My lullaby

You know I feel so loved by you... All those things that you've done for me... making me smile, laugh, and singing me a song to sleep... I really feel so blessed being loved by you. 

The countless ways that you're making me feel that you love me makes my heart filled with so much happiness and loved. 

I love you and I'll always will! 😍😍

a love letter

Little did you know that the moment we started getting to know each other, I've slowly fallen in love with you. I may not remember  the exact time that my heartbeat started to race a little more than the normal beat but I know I've been keeping you in my heart for quite awhile now. It's been months now since I've confessed my true feelings to you and we were both elated knowing that we share the same feelings.
I know we have some rough times sometimes - lack of communication, misunderstanding, "wrong tone of voice", misunderstood messages, and other stuff but I want to let you know that in spite of those circumstances, I've never ceased loving you, not even a little bit less.
Looking back, I know we had wonderful memories in the past, memories that only you and I knew but those are the memories that keep me holding on and believing that one day we're going to share more sublime memories that our friends and families would know about. Though I don't know when that time would be, I want to let you know that I'm going to wait for you and I'm just gonna be around as long as you want me to.
You're the kind of man that I want to spend my life with. You're the kind of best friend that I want to hang around with, the kind of lover that I want to share my love with, the kind of crazy that I'm absurdly fond of, and you're the story in my love story.
So I pray that no matter how rough things are going to be between us we're going to make it through, just like what you told me, we're going to face a lot of difficult things in the future but if we love each other, we'll gonna make it through. So hang on there, you got me here. I love you.
xoxo