Going home

After two long years... Actually it didn't really seem so long but I'm glad I'm coming home. Waiting for my departure... 

And I love you so

So you maybe far far away but that doesn't and won't stop me from loving you. You know that I'll just be right here waiting for you whatever it takes. You're one of the bestest blessings 

in my life and I just can't thank God enough for blessing me with a love like you. 

A visit from the past

I wish I'm a child again, worrying nothing, day dreaming, playing till mealtime, just doing all those stuff that kids do. 

I have a great childhood and now I just can't help but reminisce those memories. Those times during school vacation where my siblings and I would just go to the farm at the back of our house and build a shack and pretend that it's our house then we would mould some clay and make some pots out of if and would cook some stuff out of leaves, and seeds and other stuff. 

I think it's a wonderful escape walking down memory lane. 

Things have sure changed a lot. I'm still thankful that I have those great memories to look back. I miss being a child again.

You're like the cup of coffee that I made today - blunt! I dont understand you at times. Somehow, I'm feeling like you're being so blunt. Maybe you dont care about how I feel. I thought you understand me. You're being insensitive at times. When can you understand me? If you're having a rough day, you should have at least tell me, so I would understand why I'm not hearing from you.
Is it just because you know that I trully love you that you're just taking advantage of my feelings by not keeping your words?
How can I understand you if you're not making me understand you?
There are times that I feel like we're going nowhere.
Should I hold on?

At the end of the day

I'm thankful because at the end of the day I have no worries for tomorrow. Though there were some bad moments at work but at the end of the day, I'm thankful for no bad incidents happened. 

Hope this month will be a good one. Thank God! 

Thankful

I'm just thankful for today. I believe miracles happen and that God is always watching over me. And so I thank God for so many things.

Feeling blessed 🙏

Thoughts...

A few years ago, how I longed to come here. How I longed to see this place and experience life here. Now that I'm here and it's almost a couple of years of being here, I'm a bit tired of my routine.

I don't hate my life here, but I don't really like it either. Sometimes I think people who are doing what they want and being where they want to be are very lucky. 

They said you can change where you are, you're not a tree - how I wish it's that easy. Reality is, things are not always as easy as they seem to be. ***deep sigh***

Alright, everything's gonna be alright. I know.